☼ Was reading messages in bed when I heard Mum call out. She had fallen down while trying to get into bed (she's somewhat disabled). Dad's still too weak to lift her up. Good thing my bedroom is just next to theirs, so I help her up quickly. She's not heavy, to my surprise. I catch myself thinking, "So this is what all those torturous squatting exercises are for."
Earlier this morning I had snoozed the 10:30AM alarm and slept in until 1:30PM. Not sure why so tired. From yesterday's grocery shopping with Dad?
☾ Today's caregiving and household chores took up the full day. I have nothing left in me. I'm just going to let that feeling sit for a bit and stop myself from feeling like I "achieved nothing" today. I centre myself with SW's words, "You are exactly where you need to be." Client work begins on Monday anyway. I don't owe anyone anything today.
On the bright side, Dad's finally smiling again after having the catheter removed (I forget how many days ago? I'm losing my sense of time here). He has been grumpy for weeks and I have been avoiding talking to him. It was nice to have a good chat with him again this evening.
I know this is supposed to be a "how I frakked around for 10,000 hours and found $10k" blog and who cares about my personal stuff. But I think this is also all part of it, because sometimes reality happens.
This is why I'm on a social media detox, because people there are not based in reality. It's all carefully crafted highlight reels. Everyone's selling you something. Or they take the opposite route and do 'vulnerability farming' for engagement. I just can't anymore.
I will get back on X, Bsky, Mastodon, and Threads someday mes bébés... as soon as I figure out how. I do miss you, the good friends I've made, the conversations we've had. I have unreplied replies from July and I feel bad. But I have too much going on with work and family.
Right now I'm genuinely enjoying the peace and quiet of the void I'm talking into.
It's now close to midnight. Time to wake Mum up and prep her meals and meds.
Living in a tropical, developing country is no joke. In four weeks I have graduated from being a mosquito buffet to a red ants buffet.
Two very different reactions from different frands. But I love them all <3
